Hello there! Today I want to write about something that has been a recent struggle in my life for the past few days. As you know (if you’re an avid reader of my material) I am 21 soon to be 22 with big plans and not the clearest of direction. As I finish school I am working A LOT! Mostly I consume my time with other people’s children…. probably because I don’t have any of my own yet (thank god). Being a nanny has made me fall in love with the whimsical conversations of make believe and art projects that will stain your hands and clothes for days. It has inspired me to work with kids in any capacity I can. More recently I embarked on the never dull journey of being a substitute teacher for special needs kids! It has truly sent me in the opposite direction I thought I was going two months ago. Just goes to show that just because you can legally vote doesn’t mean you are capable of choosing your life path. So where am I going with this?
I myself am confused and on top of that I am in a very lovely relationship with my wonderful boyfriend who happens to be in the same boat. The only difference is that he is done with his degree so he has a few more options at the moment. For the past year he has been working as a Special Education teacher (he inspired me to become a sub) and despite his love for the kids, the lure of a hardy salary is more than appealing. So, the past few days we have been on a soul search. As of now he gets every break the kids do from school and though he doesn’t make the best money in the world; he gets up and does something meaningful and rewarding every morning.
Here is the dilemma, he recently has happened upon an amazing career opportunity that over doubles his current salary and is in his degree field. Well Mads, whats the problem?
The problem is the trade offs. Yes, it is higher paying. Yes, we could get a house. Yes, we could afford to get married sooner than later. BUT HERE’S THE DEAL, possible work on weekends, no vacation for the first few months, no set hours, and staying in our hometown indefinitely. To some, everything I listed is not a problem but to me it raises some red flags. As a couple we are total dreamers. We are constantly trying to plan our next trip before we have even gone on the two we have set up before. I have dreams of moving abroad and teaching English and so does he. So we have struggled with the pressures of being socially acceptable versions of an adult or sending it into the unknown and hoping that job circles back in 5 years.
I mean sure we’d make more money…but when would we travel?? We have no real ties keeping us here and though I don’t plan on leaving tomorrow, I love the idea of being able to go whenever we are ready.
Currently no finite decisions have been made but I think we are leaning towards staying young for as long as possible and embracing the corporate chaos at a later date. The reality of it is that if we stay here life will move faster than I think either one of us would like. A job like the one he has happened upon changes things. It would change our current dynamic as couple as it would demand longer hours and unconventional hours at that. Neither one of us ever has to bring work home for the time being and that would be subject to change in the event he took this job. Ultimately, it would affect both of us. And I for one, am just not ready. I have a serious case of wanderlust that won’t let me stay still and I plan to abide by that!
My kid clock is the one running out, I have plenty of time to be an adult, so I think I’ll be young and free for a few more years.